I just wanted to write you a letter. I’ve been working as an assistant manager for nearly a year now and I thought by now I’d have this role down pat but I’m realising that I’ve still got a lot to learn and experience. I want you to know that I still don’t know everything, that every single shift I am presented with opportunities to learn and grow. I have had to accept that it’s ok to be a beginner and you probably don’t realise how much learning and making things up I’ve done on the go.
I am still learning how to ask for help when I need it and how to face conflict and confrontation instead of running away from them. My ideas about myself are constantly challenged and I have experienced a rainbow of emotions in the last year. I’ve realised that if I can be happy and full of ‘positive’ emotion I can equally be angry and experience a variety of ‘negative’ emotions which is natural, I’m learning too that these are just emotions and that they pass.
I’m also still learning to accept that sometimes I am wrong and that it’s ok to be. Sometimes I struggle to accept feedback and advice because sometimes for me this highlights that I don’t know something and I don’t like like not knowing or sometimes even being told.
I’m learning a lot about people, their values and their why’s. Why you all want to come to work besides the money and how you want to feel. I’m learning how to work with such a large group of individuals and how to not only keep myself motivated but everyone else as well.
I am learning how to be gentle with myself and how to look after myself. I am constantly being reminded that when I’m not looking after me I can’t show up as the best version of myself.
I am learning that everything happens for a reason and that mistakes are what make us human, mine and yours and that they help us grow. I’m learning how to teach and guide and leave space for creativity and individuality.
I’m learning about perspective and how it can make the difference between a ‘good’ shift and a ‘bad’ shift and how everyone has their own ideas, thoughts and opinions.
Dear Team. I am far from having it all figured out and to be honest I probably won’t but please be patient with me as I continue finding my way through this chapter of my journey.
As a final note something I don’t say all that often is thank you. Thank you for being part of this journey with me. I am also learning to accept you are all individuals on your own journeys and we have all just happened to cross paths in this job for a reason.
With Much Love