So the last week I bought a new laptop, not just any new laptop but a MacBook. Something I have been dreaming about owning for years. My old laptop is starting to become a bit of a dinosaur, it doesn’t survive without constant power supply and takes ages to turn on and off. With my new beautiful laptop in hand it was so easy to dis and bag out the old dinosaur of a thing that I’ve used for about five years now. But when I get truthful I actually really like that big old thing. It served me so well for that time, allowed me to type thousands of words, make beautiful designs and quirky little videos. I am grateful for the time I had with it.
That got me thinking, that how sometimes after change we are so quick to judge and ‘bag out’ what was and has been and think how much better off we are now. Whether that be a job, a place, a relationship or a thing. Once change has come and we’ve settled into the new change we can be quick to judge what came before. It’s at this time that I think we can show a little gratitude and love towards what has been. I’m not saying we have to hold onto the old things when they no longer serve us because change can be good and some things just stop working and that’s ok.
I’ve had things (jobs, people, places) that have been in my life for many years that eventually changed, these’s changes were good and though hard at the time were for the better. However sometimes now when I think back on what was I catch myself thinking about them from a place of judgement. Thoughts like why did you stay in what wasn’t working for so long? That thing was never really good. That place was never that great. Maybe this is the inner voice still trying to help me feel good about the change, I’m not sure. But truth be told though these things in my life have all played a part in shaping who I am today, they have served me and have been important chapters in my story, so for that I’m grateful.
I’m also grateful that by letting these things go it also opens up opportunities for new chapters, people, places, jobs and things to come into your life. Which I think is the key, gratitude. That whenever you look back on something you can find the little bit of gold and good and gratitude in whatever it is you are looking back on.
So to my clunky old laptop, thank you for serving me and the good times and to my new laptop I’m looking forward to lots of creative times ahead with you, starting with this blog post.